This has been a busy week. Keith and I got to practice parenting this weekend when we watched my three youngest siblings while my parents and sister went to my cousin's wedding. It wasn't terrible but we are very glad the baby won't want to go many places. We are also very happy that we don't have to worry about teenage things for quite awhile.
We have been thinking about buying our own place instead of paying for rent every month. We got the good news this morning that we would be able to get financing for a place. Now we just need to find where we want to live. It is crazy how life goes so fast. We are a little nervous to get our own place but we are also very excited!
How Far Along: 21 Weeks 1 day
Size of Baby: 10 ½ inches and 3/4 pound. (This is according to Baby Center app)
Cravings: Today it is doughnuts and Jimmy Johns
Sleep: It is getting harder to get to sleep because the baby likes to kick and do gymnastics when I lay down.
Sex of Baby: Boy
Weight Gain: Hopefully a pound or so... we will see at the end of the week
Names: Landon is still what we are thinking
Fetal Movement: Whenever I lay down or try to relax he decides it is time to start moving.
Stretch marks: None
Best moment of the last week: Picking up Britteni! I love having her so close!
Miss Anything: Not having random people coming up to me to touch my stomach and ask me a whole bunch of questions about being pregnant.
Labor Signs: None
Belly Button in or out: In
Wedding rings on or off: On
Happy or Moody most of the time: Generally I'm happy until about 8 at night then I get really tired and crabby
What you are looking forward to this week: Ultra sound on Wednesday and doctor's appointment on Friday to see if everything is ok with the baby. We are a little worried he may have heart issues since both Keith and I have had heart problems in the past.
We decided to tell our story of
pregnancy. I will just do a little bit each week. I’ve heard all the comments
on how we are crazy for getting pregnant so soon after getting married and that
I am way too young to be getting pregnant.
I learned that I will always have time to continue school and to fulfill
goals I have for the future but I will not always have the opportunity to be
pregnant. Keith and I wanted to have children and we both decided that other
things in life can wait. No one is every fully prepared for children so there
was really no reason for us to not try even though we knew it was a very small
chance that we would get pregnant.
We never expected that we would be
able to have a baby of our own. A week after getting engaged my doctor got
results back from a surgery I had earlier that month and he said I would
probably never be able to get pregnant. If there was a chance that I would get
pregnant there was no way that it could happen naturally. Not only did I have a
bad case of endometriosis, I had polycystic ovarian syndrome and during the
surgery they found pre-cancerous cells in my uterus which would make getting
pregnant hard and harder to keep a baby from developing. He also told me that I
only had a few years to try to get pregnant before I had to have a
hysterectomy. My doctor is great and did his best to help me look on the bright
side of everything. He told me to go get other doctors opinions (I did they all
said the same thing) and talk with other people who may gone through similar
things.
It was all very overwhelming doctor
appointment and I was very nervous to go home and tell Keith the news. We were
so excited about getting married and I was afraid the news would put a strain
on our relationship. He was so loving and caring and told me not to worry that
everything would work out how they should. He told me he didn’t mind if we
ended up needing to adopt. It was so relieving to know he was still there for
me.
Even though I had great support it
was still hard to deal with. Here I was twenty years old having to face the
fact that I may never be able to be pregnant. It was easy to get jealous of the
people out there that were getting pregnant and not even meaning to. There were
times where Keith would just let me cry about it and do his best to comfort me.
I felt bad having such negative feelings toward people who were able to get
pregnant. At the same time I couldn’t help it.
I just wanted the opportunity to be pregnant
once and carry a child that would be mine. Don’t get me wrong I think adoption
is a wonderful thing and that it is such an amazing opportunity for people who
cannot have a baby. There was just a part of me that wanted the opportunity to
be pregnant and have a baby that I had a role in making.
Before getting married my doctor and
I discussed all my options and Keith and I decided that we should just go ahead
and try for a baby when we got married. My doctor had me come in every few weeks
to get tested and see how things were going with all of the problems I had.
Every time I went in I always got results that things were just not working
like they should. I would come home very upset and Keith would just hold me and
comfort me.
Finally in early December the doctor
said we needed to get more serious and said we needed to try clomid. Keith and
I talked about it and even with the possibility of having multiples we should
go for it. Well surprise it didn’t work.
My doctor upped to dosage and all I needed to wait for was the lovely
time of the month to start the next clomid cycle.
One night I was so unusually moody
and upset with Keith over something stupid. The next morning I decided to take
a pregnancy test and I was in shock when it was positive. Keith was out
scraping snow and ice off the cars. I quickly ran outside and showed him. We
hugged and he apologized for making me so upset the night before. I forgave him
and quickly went to the store to get another pregnancy test so that I could make
sure this was the real thing.
After four positive tests I was sure
that I was pregnant and called my doctor’s office right away. I knew it was
very important to get in as soon as possible so that I could make sure the baby
would be ok. They got me in later in the day. I got ready and headed up to my
parents so that I could tell them the news. They were so excited. It has been
very nice to have them close.
I have to say I love my doctor’s
office. They are all so friendly and always try to make things as quick as
possible. My doctor was very surprised to see me when he came in the room. I
told him I was sure I was pregnant. He looked up my labs and they could confirm
it. He sat and talked to me and told me what to expect and told me we needed to
be very careful because it was a miracle that I was pregnant. He answered any question I had. I really
appreciate that he will take time and answer any questions I have even when he
is super busy. He told me how happy he was for us and that he will do
everything he can to make this a good pregnancy and make it as easy as possible
on me.
