Some days being a mom is really hard. Even though it is everything I've ever wanted it doesn't make those hard days easier. You question why things just don't work out and why things are happening the way they are. You wonder if you are a good mother and if you can really be this child's mother and give them everything they need. Then there are those moments when you realize why you are a mother and how absolutely wonderful that blessing is.
I was having a hard day this week, nothing seemed to be going well. It just seemed to be one thing after another, doctors visits, school, work, you name it and on top of everything I had a very upset baby who is teething. He was having a hard day and it was really hard to watch him not feel well. I was just so tired and just not sure what to with everything going on. After trying to get the baby happy by watching some you-tube videos I came across these two videos.
It is amazing how simple things can really make you reevaluate you life. Yes things were not going the way I thought and/or wanted but at the end of the day I was so blessed. First of all I have a very loving and patient Savior who knows my struggles and is there for me when I need it the most. Second, I have an absolutely amazing husband who loves me and my son. We don't always agree but I know he would do anything for me and Landon. I also have the most amazing blessing of being the Mother of a beautiful and healthy baby. He has become the center of my world. I feel so blessed to have him and be able to be part of raising him. I realize that things will not always be perfect and there will be bad days. In the end I know that I am being blessed and that I'm not doing this alone there are many people helping me.
My heart just ache for those people who struggle to have children and are not able to. When I thought that may be us it was just so hard to even grasp. It just makes me hope that those people have an opportunity to make a difference in a child's life and experience the wonderful joy of teaching and caring for a child. I love being a mom and I just hope that those who really want to be a mom have that opportunity in some way.
